Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

About a boy who randomly posts but is filled with many thoughts, most of them ridiculous, some stupid and the odd one intriguing...

Sunday, June 16, 2002

Well, I had hoped to write sooner but this visit has been INSANE. Convocation was far more sentimental and emotional than I thought. Walking across the stage seems like such a petty and insignificant act, considering you graduate regardless of whether you do it and that you are (in my particular ceremony) amongst 950 other people who will do exactly the same thing. But it was really meaningful- ending a five-year stint in Waterloo where I found a new home, fell in love with so many people who I still care deeply for, and found and discovered a me that I am much happier and much more comfortable with.

I'm still recovering from a reminscence club trip to Hamilton with the bois last night where we partied it up at Hamilton Pride at Embassy until 2:30 am and then drove back so I could crash before breakfast with a soulful and wonderful friend, Chris, and then church. Church was great and I remember now why I love this congregation so much. Bob, my second dad here in Waterloo, did a sermon about a "genderless" understanding of God as father which incorporated close Biblical reading, a Tai-Chi demonstration and some thoughts from Karl Jung. It was beautiful and very insightful.

I'm back tonight at 8, unfortunately having to miss the recital that my friend Karen planned around my visit... Stupid lack of late-night flights (and why couldn't Barrie be closer to Hamilton?)

Anyway, see most of you soon, some of you never, and some live on inside me because you have given so much of yourselves to me.